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tuesdays-with-terrie-croppedIt’s been a few weeks but things were not going as well as I’d like (plus I was busy as the dickens with work) so I wanted to work through those things before I posted.

I finally feel like my energy is returning from the surgery. It took much longer than I expected which is probably a function of both the type of surgery and my age (nah!) but at least I’m feeling stronger.

I had started trying to run but was not happy at all and in fact, was downright discouraged because I felt worse than when I first started running in 1994. I had no endurance and everything hurt. And then….something unusual developed in my ankle – I got some sort of bursitis in the heel – very unusual for me.  I couldn’t run OR walk. So that was a big downer too.

As a result, I had to ask myself what the Universe was trying to tell me. Was it that I wasn’t going to be able to run anymore or that I wasn’t going to be able to do the Tennessee event in July (running out of time) or even that I needed to revisit my purpose in life? Many questions, no answers.

So, I just relaxed and let the answers come. One answer was that it was NOT too late to consider Tennessee but that I shouldn’t fall into the trap I did last year and try to do too much in too short a time and then violate all the training laws I had ever learned – thus, leading to my injury and early pull out. That answer was very helpful.

Also, I was feeling discouraged but realized that I had control over my feelings no matter what the external circumstances were. I pulled myself up by the bootstraps and realized that my life was NOT dependent on running and that even though I love it very much, if I can’t run, there are many other things I can (and want to) do. Building my coaching program is a major part of my life especially since I’m so immersed in the course I’m taking right now. Also, finishing my book is very important to me. I showed myself how rich and rewarding my life is whether I’m out there on the road or not. It’s ok to take the time to let my ankle heal (no pun intended). If I don’t make it to Tennessee this year, there is next year.

Bottom line, just relax and let the Universe unfold in front of me, holding the positive things that I want to do with my life in the front of my mind, not concentrating on the negatives, or worse yet, the ‘possibles’.  As Mark Twain said –

“I’ve had a lot of worries in my life, most of which never happened.”

The last thing I want is for those worries TO HAPPEN in my life and being so good at attracting events into my life, I do NOT want to concentrate on any of the worries. I want to focus on all the great stuff that I desire.

One of the activities that is helping with this is my making a desire inventory. I’m listing all the things I desire in life without regard to how or when they might happen. For example, if I wanted a 15 million dollar house (which I don’t but I saw this online last night) I would write it down despite the fact that I have absolutely no idea how I would get it. The point is to put down everything that would make me happy and that I would love in my life.

Try it..it will take awhile especially since you’ll have to get rid of some of these blocks before you can get everything out. But it will be a liberating exercise for you. It will get you out of the confined space where you are right now.

Have a great week!

Terrie

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tuesdays-with-terrie-croppedCOMING SOON!! That’s the best way I can describe this week – I feel as if the Academy Awards show is Friday and I’m the star…ha  ha – no such luck.  But in my defense I did say I “feel”. So I can do anything I want inside my head and heart.

Ok so I’ll get to the point – this Friday I can RUN AGAIN – hope I remember how…

It will be six weeks and my “prison sentence” will be over. I’m just kidding. It’s been a good “sentence” and I’m not complaining. I’ve learned a lot and done a lot in that time that I couldn’t run. It’s actually been closer to 3 months since I could really do anything serious because my back was injured before the surgery. So it will be very interesting to see how I do. I know that my running leg muscles are well rested even though I’ve been able to walk as much as I wanted. See – there are silver linings in all of those clouds. It’s just up to us to fly our own airplanes up and through the clouds to see those linings.

I’ve learned a great deal about myself and even developed some patience and different perspective in these 6 weeks. Lots has happened in my life and in the lives of friends so running can be put in its proper place. It’s very important to me but I now have a much better idea of how and why.

I also realized that I’m very powerful because I’m sure that I created this medical problem requiring surgery to get out of two events I was not prepared for. I really do have to learn to pay more attention to my thoughts and change them immediately. This is the second time I’ve done something significant like this in the context of a running event. The first time, though, I was able to remove it/correct it quickly. This time not so lucky. Oh well. I am glad I’m powerful but as I keep telling everyone, once you’re aware of the Law of Attraction and how you create everything in your life, you have increased responsibility to behave properly. I know better and yet it’s my subconscious that does all this. Argh…I will pay more attention.

Anyway, I’m so happy Friday is almost here. Even my messed up second external monitor can’t take away from my happiness about that. Thank you Universe for everything I’ve learned in the past 6 weeks!

Terrie

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tuesdays-with-terrie-croppedSeparation Anxiety – that’s the best way to describe it. A certain group of readers will understand this completely..ha ha.

It’s now been over a month since I’ve been able to/allowed to run. Even though I am allowed to walk, it’s just not the same. Every day I walk by my Garmin wrist device and I have to stop and talk to it so it doesn’t feel lonely. It just sits there wanting to jump onto my wrist and go out and play with me. But, it sees me walk away – it feels snubbed. Who ever thought a device could feel snubbed? But I swear it does. I just hope I remember how to operate it when I’m allowed to run again.

However, I must admit that I have found pleasure in walking for the past several weeks. Knowing I am not allowed to run has enabled me to not worry about my performance but to just enjoy being outside in the gorgeous weather we’re having here in Texas (sorry East Coast). It’s making me long for my Tennessee trek in July. And definitely making me long for the day (1 1/2-2 weeks away still) when I can just take off and run!

I’m back at work now (yesterday was the first day) and still working through some post-op issues but I “think” they are improving (I can’t ever tell until a few days have gone by because my system is so funky). I was wiped out by noon though so fortunately my great boss let me leave early. I think I will do that again today and tomorrow probably – easing my way back into the full swing of things. More of the “taking it slow” concept.

It was good to see everyone again and fortunately we are pending a major crisis at work so that occupied my mind for quite a while – I do much better with an occupied mind rather than having to just dive right back into the boring aspects of my job.

Learning that the world continued to revolve just fine without me was interesting. A few years ago (and maybe even just a year ago) that would have bothered me and I would have felt unneeded. But, this time, it’s part of embracing the journey. I was proud of the guys who took over for me and did a fine job. I  know that they have learned well and know exactly what to do! That felt great too.

I will continue with my “slow down” theme for the month leading into April and encourage you to embrace the concept as well.  There is so much more that we can get out of life if we just slow down and take our time.

Take your time, enjoy your life, you never know what the next moment will bring. Really try to figure out what “enjoy the moment” means to you. Then just do it.

Terrie

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tuesdays-with-terrie-croppedI’m home! See – everything DOES work out for me.

Although there are plenty of places I would rather be, this was one of THE most enjoyable hospital experiences I have ever had (no I am not a masochist, just reporting what I experienced).  I had the best care (shame on the Navy – Army medicine here in San Antonio certainly has Navy medicine beat) you could ever ask for. And I had friends to take care of me and be by my side even when I didn’t know they were there – that was a funny part of the story better kept to telling in person.

The EFT work I did with Mary Ayers  before hand was instrumental in my getting out of the hospital in less than 72 hours from the end of my surgery. I just kept using the techniques that Mary went through with me and whenever I was having concerns or worries, I turned to what she taught me and it worked. I highly recommend both EFT AND Mary to anyone who wants to work with an EFT coach. This has just solidified my faith in coaching and the benefit working with another person who is on your side will give you. I would not have made it through with so little anxiety without Mary! I owe her so very much for working with me on this.

That is the primary lesson for this week – find a coach and hold on to them although there may be times when you have to move on to a different coach. People change but the usefulness of a coach is always positive. A “coach” is a vehicle that helps you get from one place to another – a place of your choosing. You can look at a coach as a sounding board or as a guide or even just a friend. A coach is probably the most valuable resource you can have.

From the weather to my arrival home, everything went according to plan! And whether it was my plan or that of the Universe, I can tell you I was very happy with the plan and its results. The weather was supposed to be a mess – a rIMG_2320are winter weather advisory with icy roads was predicted. Did any of that happen? Heck no. It wasn’t even rainy. My friend cruised right up to the hospital and let me out and I went to the waiting room. I guess if there was any “hitch” at all, it would have been that there was a very, very long delay before I went into the operating room. I knew it would be later than I wanted since I was third on the schedule but I didn’t know it would be that late…and there was no way to get messages to people out of state who were waiting to hear what happened.  But I had great company while waiting (my boss was there the whole time – what a wonderful gesture that was and the staff was great). the Anesthesia crew listened to my concerns about my neck and not wanting to have nausea when I woke up and they succeeded in preventing all of those problems.  The surgical staff was wonderful and kept stopping by to fill me in on the progress in the room and then I went in.

I don’t remember much after that until sometime the next day but I know that people were there and they were my advocates while I was under the “influence” so I was in great hands no matter what.

IMG_2322My pain was pretty minimal and for that I was extremely grateful. I have restrictions that I don’t like (so what else is new huh, when someone else tells me what to do – ha ha). But you know what? I AM going to do what I am told and I am going to find the good in every part of it. I can’t run for 4-6 weeks but I can walk which is more than I expected so I am ecstatic. I can also rest and one thing I realized is that I cannot remember the last time I actually took some time to rest. That feels pretty good. I may even take all the time off work that we planned. That would be unusual, wouldn’t it? But I think it would be delightful.

There are some problems post-operatively that I’m not overly happy about but I’m not going to obsess over them too much, knowing that nothing is insurmountable and I will continue to work with EFT (and hopefully Mary will want to continue to work with m) on them. I am going to use this time to get rested and ready for Vol State this summer but I am also aware of how I messed up my training last year thinking I had to get “it all done” in a short period of time, over trained and got injured to start the run…the perfect recipe for disaster.

If you declare everything good, work to minimize the anticipatory anxiety as much as you can, know what to do when you encounter further anxiety, treat people with gratitude, courtesy and respect no matter what happens and know that you have so much to give to others, NOTHING can go wrong for you.

I thank everyone for their support and concern and hope that you continue to send healing prayers to me as my body works on its molecular level to heal!

Terrie

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tuesdays-with-terrie-cropped“What’s up Doc?” might be a better lead in for this week’s episode.

I’m two days away from the operating room.

Needless to say I’m worried. I have never used my favorite saying so much in my life. “Everything always works out for me” – over and over again.

I’ve also been using my favorite technique for reducing anxiety and fear – EFT (emotional freedom technique). Fortunately I worked with an EFT practitioner weekly for about 2-3 years so I know what to do and where to go with this. However, I’ve also made an appointment with another EFT practitioner I really respect to fine tune my tapping since when you’re in the middle of things, you can miss some key points. That’s my belief about coaching and an EFT practitioner is a coach.

A Coach helps you get where you need to go but you do the work and you provide the direction.

This past 2 weeks have been a whirlwind of thoughts, emotions and activity. I’ve had to prioritize my life and if others can’t deal with my decisions I just have hoped they would understand and get over it.

Just what I needed at work yesterday – someone got their feelings hurt because I told them to get out of my chair. Really? And I’m upset with myself for letting it bother me that that person is upset with me. Shows me that I really don’t have all my priorities straight.

“Everything always works out for me” – over and over again and again…ha ha. I can tease but it really is true and saying that and “Nothing and no one can interfere with my health and well-being, not even myself”. This is another important phrase in my vocabulary right now.

Remember that I’m a physician and I know what can go wrong. If I were to focus on those things, what would happen? I’d most likely attract that into my life and I surely don’t want that. So, I use these two statements to get my mind back on a better and higher plane and increase  my vibrations so that I set up the best possible environment and situation for myself.

Hopefully I’ll be out of the hospital in time to provide next week’s update. Take care for now.

Terrie