I ended up trading good for not-so-good.
I asked one of the guys I really like if I could ride with him. He said "sure" and that was alot of fun since we rarely get to talk together since we work in this big open room.
But we got to the place earlier than the others and the guy I was with went to the end of the table. So of course, it didn't end up being the ones I would have chosen to sit by - at least on one side. On one side it was ok and I had fun harassing the guy about the Yankees-Red Sox rivalry. But on the other and louder side someone ended up sitting with us that really opened my eyes.
I listened to this person for the entire time and wondered which of those qualities I was cringing from were also in me.
You see, we attract people that are like us. Notice I didn't say that we attract people we like. It's simply that people around us have characteristics that we don't necessarily want to have. That was what I found out yesterday.
When I came home from work - after being saturated with the sensation of fingers grating across a chalkboard, I sat down, pulled out my paper and made a list of what it was that drove me nuts during that experience. I just wrote quickly. Then I looked at the entire list and put check marks by those qualities that I realized were also within me.
I then went back over the list and put question marks by the qualities that I wasn't sure were inside of me or not (odds are that they are there, though).
Then I went to my computer and made a list of denials using each of those qualities as the basis for one denial. I followed that by creating affirmations that would embed the qualities I really wanted to have inside of me.
For this next 3-5 days however, I will simply say the denials over and over all day long.
After that, I will then say the denials followed by affirmations for as long as it feels right AND I notice the beginnings of some changes in me.
Why don't you take advantage of what I learned so that the next time you have an experience like mine, you can make the most of it. You know what else I did? I thanked the Universe for letting this happen to me - of course, I used my Gratitude Journal to record that thanks.
This has been another quick tip for making metaphysics work for you! Hope it was helpful.